title: i'm staring at our msn conversation and i had the sudden urge to type,
''you know i'm missing you nows? i wanna glomp you too. i think it would feel nice to glomp you.'' but you'd think im playing around and being weird again. i wanna confess that i love you too. but i'm so scared things would change between us if you don't feel the same way. everytime i see you smsing other girls, i would feel so jealous and sad at the same time. you asked me today to tell you if somebody replies back, it felt like you were very anxious about it. and you reply to her so damn fast.....im thinking if it were me..would it be the same? ahhhhhh damn this feeling... TT it would be nice if you love me like i love you. |
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title: School ended and i was very happy.
I even ate macs and happily window shopped around white sands. but when i came back, i asked for the com back from my bro. i means it's my turn to use okay!! but he say tomorrow he got sch so he want use. WTF? HE GOT SCHOOL THEN I NO SCHOOL MEH? SUMMORE I WAKING UP EARLY THAN HIM. 530AM WAKE UP LEH!! and then he say, "i can give you, you lend me your laptop and bring in the table outside." FUCK HIM CAN I HIS SLAVE AR? AND MY LAPTOP LEH WTF WTF arghhh... normally i wouldn't mind but somehow i kindda pissed off today and all.. yeah.. so after that kindda emo...really emo... i was crying abit already...haiis..... and then someone unexpected was the one who comforted me.. lols.. maybe cause that time i was talking to him uh... haiis... feeling a little bit better but not that better.. still feel like i can crumble and fall to pieces and moment... |
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title: jinyi says i'm crazy and i think so too. haha.
cause i dreamt of you for 2 consecutive nights. never happened before with anyone. lols. i believed that dreams represent something so i go check. and im not weird for checking it out okay!! :/ first dream.. i was gonna hear something i didn't want to hear so i covered my ears and ran away.. i ran into the toilet and i hid at a corner, crying.. (lols.. :/) then you were banging on the door asking me come out but i didnt. until a cockroach came out of nowhere then i come out..(freaked out can..) you were gone lo..then i walked into some room..(haha my surroundings keep changing. xD) and you were there in a suit, black colour de or dark blue. (haha. xD same as yoseobbie's. LOLS) and i shall end it here!! xD still got more but i get goosebumps and might die of embarrassment just thinking that i have to write it out.. hahah. xD it all ended happy la. :) second dream.. we were in some lesson..on a couch(?) watching some video on a projector.. throughout the dream..i totally got ignored..got cold shoulder..got dao-ed like siao..by you.. eventually you talked but it was better off when you didn say anything cause..haii..hurtful words.. :/ after that, silence liao..totally no sound..but i keep staring at you and being depressed. abit wth la.. first night nice dream, second night bad dream.. TT like roller coaster go up then down.. TT haha and the interpretations...hahaha. 1) Bathroom To dream that you are in the bathroom, relates to your instinctual urges. You may be experiencing some burdens/feelings and need to "relieve yourself". Alternatively, a bathroom symbolizes purification and self-renewal. You need to cleanse yourself, both emotionally and psychologically. 2) Cockroach To see a cockroach in your dream, symbolizes uncleanness. It also signifies longevity, tenacity and renewal. You need to reevaluate major aspects of your life. Alternatively, the dream represents an undesirable aspect of yourself in which you need to confront. 3) Classroom To dream that you are in a classroom, indicates that you may be learning an important life lesson. Alternatively, it symbolizes personal growth. You are learning something about yourself. 4) Ignore To dream that you are ignoring someone or being ignored, represents some aspect of yourself which you are not paying enough attention to. Perhaps you are overlooking something. 5) Hurt To dream that you are hurt, signifies wounded emotions or feelings that you may have suppressed. 6) Silence To dream that someone is silent, means that you are unsure about this person's intentions. Perhaps you are still trying to understand them. There may be a sense of uneasiness. lols. there's more but i lazy put up.. i see already.. haiis.. rawr!! :/ ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- yesterday go play pool with jinyi and yuxuan at ehub. haha. learn some new stuffs. :) haha. and yuxuan's better than my cousin.. @.@ so cool. haha. jinyi got addicted to it like how i got addicted also when i first play. haha. didnt want to leave that time summore. haha xD after that buy stuff and slack under my block there until 6plus. lols.. drums was lik....omg... started to learn flam.. left flam right flam left flam right flam. rawr!! coordination abit screwed and the sound seemed weird-ish haha. will i ever be a good drummer? TT haiis.. : / |
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title: went to school with the working crowd..
super squeezy and damn tired that i actually slept while standing.. when we went to our room, the atmosphere was like solemn and very quiet.. i managed to talk to 2 girls for awhile but since they were in 02 and i was 03 so not really alot.. my PT is like super friendly!! xD compared to how yanny describes hers, mine like very nice. xD he's like funny and joker.. xD my class has around 18-20 people. not sure if everyone was present. we were very enthu in a way.. since almost the whole class went for the dmit activity that was optional. i know some of them liao, mostly remember faces more than names... there's meiqi, venty, cassandra, andrea, jia wei, kin key, wu heng.... aish.. i remember their faces but not their names... TT im bad at names.. i wanted to pay for the 3rd lang thingy. so i want the student centre there ask and they say can pay at the kiosk outside. but the stupid kiosk took so long to load the page.. then when i insert my card in it says cant read.. so bloody pissed that i just stormed off.. rawr!! now that module left 1 slot.. im a goner.. :/ but in a way i can leave early on wed? i guess. haha. let fate decide.. after that went home with corne and yanny.. laughing so much in the train about random stuff.. more of corne laughing alot then make me and yanny cant stop also.. after that i remembered my bro's turn to use com.. so damn bored.. then yuxuan say want slack somewhere then go lor.. in the end just sit near my block talk talk talk from 3(?) until like 5.40? lols.. at least time flew by very fast.. haha.. i kindda forgot about lunch also sia. o.O i realised i didn eat anything else but 3 sotong balls from old changkee for the whole day.. haha go home eat dinner until so fast. xD hahaha. i think my phone is spoilt.. either i send people lag sms or people sms i lag receive.. :/ 나 어떡해 네가 보고 싶어져 ... |
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title: ahahaha.. what did i do yesterday.. omg..
i still cant believe it.. hahaha.. :/ on my birthday summore!! it was those 'in the moment' kind of reaction. lols. didn't think and just do/say. rawr!! don't get me wrong.. i do not regret it.. i just thought that it could have been in a way better situation.. :/ cause it was more of an interrogation than...ahh..whatever. should be contented cause at least i manage to convey it.....in a way.. >< ------------------------------------------- today was.....fun. but i was more of a watcher/outsider than in the fun. :/ i always feel like im watching instead of being in the show. lols.. i hope tomorrow...would be better.. :/ saw someone who looks like popcorn. lol!! xD she was playing the daiko drums. cute ttm!! and then got one gl looked like a girl but is a guy.. -.-ll i think he misunderstood me cause i kept staring at him and wondering his gender.. lols. got to see SP's principal. lols. he's so ordinary, i feel shocked. xD haha.. and then dmit's head teacher person is a lady. omgah. xD she congratulated those who got the ida scholarship.. :/ my course not included in the ida scholarship...rawr!! blehs.. nvms..i shall be so successful next time that they will put me in their brochure. hahhahah. talking rubbish now... :/ ---------------------------------------------- did i messed up? did i make it uncomfortable? or weird? or is it a burden? i keep thinking about all these whenever i pick up my phone.. i don't wanna make it troublesome for you.. and yet when i think that it means nothing to you.. and you can carry on life as per normal.. like nothing happened.. it's saddening really..and hurtful.. haha.. cause im nothing.. haha.. im so contradicting... i dono what i want anymore... to the author of my life: what the hell are you planning to make me experience next? personality disorder? Dx rawr!! |
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title: turns out there are people who read this. -.-ll
sighs.. i guess i should say hi? -.-ll oh whatever.. blehs.... since they are silent readers i shall ignore you.. -.-ll happy birthday to me.. heaven gave me showers of blessing (rain..). lols! i think onli ahs ppl will get it. xD speaking of ahs.. i wanna go back sec sch... rawr!! to stare at people, fold skirt, fold socks, eat in class, piss my emaths tcher and many more.. haha.. and study bio too.. :/ i want learn more about it. haha. i think sec2 was most fun one..or rather eventful la..... tmr need go sp at 8am... walaos.. 6am wake up 7 am leave. summore different class from yanny... i dono if i can even talk to anyone... -.-llll i hope got cute cute people!! nyahahaha. :X then can stare all i want. lols!!! gonna take 3rd lang.. gonna fill up my schedule so i won have any time.. lols.. take japanese. haha. can write in japanese then no one will understand. nyaahah.. lols.. im filled with evilness today.. :/ ------------------------------------------------ trying to be understanding is hard.. i nearly cant stop myself from rampaging.. you're bloody lucky you're not online today.. -.- in my head i've injure you until you were hospitalized with many bruises and fractures.. sighs.. but i cant really say anything la... cause if i were in yr position i would be as kpo as you too.. blehs.. is this the aries trait or normal human behavior... :/ whatever la.. haha.. *takes breathing exercises* |
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title: so it's my birthday today, finally im 17. :/
i feel older already. lols. i must be mad. haha. surprisingly, my parents didnt wish me happy birthday yet even though all of us are awake. do you think they forgot? :/ i think so leh. i mean, my father did forget it once. o.o anyway i'm glad that there's people who wish me happy birthday at midnight. :D first was jerome i think.. second was jinyi! third was boonkeong. fourth was jiingwei fifth was yanjun sixth was junyang seventh was marilyn eighth was..sorry but a no. i didn know. still thanks lo. haha. all of you all were awake pass midnight. lols!! btw those were smses. fb got alot!! :D lols. so many people awake. xD all become nocturnal liaos. lols. ------------------------------------------------------------------ i manage to post something decently happy.. actually around 2-3hrs before, i was super emo, on the verge of crying.. i bit myself to stop the tears.. i didn want to use that penknife again lols! the bite mark didn fade off until 1h++ bite too hard liaos.. never happen before. last time very fast gone liao. hmms... :/ was emoing about something stupid.. i really should learn to trust people.. i feel so shameful for suspecting something.. haiis... betrayal is a scary thing to me.. :/ ---------------------------------------------------------------- so YOU text peoples.. and lets everybody see it.. i feel afraid to tell you anything and everything.. but i guess YOU don't want to text me too.. really have that feeling that YOU don't wanna get to close to me at all.. my fault for making YOU uncomfortable bahs.. :/ argh.... frustrated.. Dx maybe i shouldn't think and care at all for now.. lols.. driving myself nuts.. when sch starts i don't think i have the time to think about all these liaos. :/ blehs!! nights!! |
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