title: horrible day... today was a lousy day...
i was super emo like crap... haiis.. first shihui didn't come....zzzz... then she didn't want to go drums too....zzz... i seriously speechless about that okay...zzz.. second, my results was bloody shit even though i admit it was better than i expected.. i got 18.... and my BEST subject i got F9.... argh....i can't take it anymore.....fucking fucking results.... i should just fucking die....i'm so screwed up....fuck... sorry for the vulgarities...haiis.... what to do....i'm dead....my mom....haiis.... thirdly, i nearly cried when i went to drums alone....haiis.... i seriously felt so odd and awkward and lonely walking around in a oh-so-packed mall... i'm so out of place...haiis.... nobody was free to eat dinner with me...haiis... at the beginning of the day, i prayed so hard that today would go well... i prayed that shihui won't oversleep, but she did.. i prayed that at least dex or jinyi can eat dinner with me, but jinyi no cca and dex...just couldn't.. i prayed that drums would go well, but i screwed up mostly.. i prayed that(some miracle maybe?) that amaths the teacher would count others, but she didn... does praying really helps? i wonder haiis.... 어떡해...질리다... |
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